Most of my life is filled with a predictable rhythm. Most of my days are about being faithful. Enduring. Running the race with perseverance. There’s laundry to do. Babysitting to do. A meeting tonight and tomorrow night. There’s opening our home to others…..which has always been my best motivator to clean my house. Letters to write. Emails to send. People to meet with. Scheduling to do. Up at 6:00. Have my time in the Bible (my favorite part of the day). Exercise. Shower. And off I go. Bill and I have a planning “meeting” in the summer to plan our next year. [I have had to learn how to do that without feeling claustrophobic and trapped.] You get the feel. And in saying all of that, I don’t mean that it is drudgery. This is my happy work. But there are times when I feel the “work” part of it all. And that’s when the Holy Spirit whispers, “Press through it. Lean on me. Trust Me.”
And I will go beyond that and confess the darker side of my heart to you. I will confess that I have watched others take trips that I wish I could take. I have asked, “When me, Lord?” I have been tempted to view my lot as less than wonderful. (I am ashamed of this. Because my life is so full of goodness and blessing.) I have watched God bless others with what He will not give me. Can you hear the language of Self? We speak English around here…..but I’m fluent in the language of Self.
All of that to say this: recently Jesus broke through all the predictability of my life and He blessed me with my favorite trip that Bill and I ever took!! The various details of it are too many to chronicle. The Lord whisked me away to Boston with Bill (in a way that was totally within the money restraints that we had) and unfolded joy after joy. It was full of Christian fellowship…family joys…adventure…a bit of drama…wonderful weather…and a great little trip into an Anthropologie store to boot!! I knew we were going, but the joy of it all totally surprised me!! I still feel the glow of those 4 days.
But even more than the trip…..I have been reminded again….that Jesus knows how to bless us. And He’s very generous. Just look at Spring as it is “springing” around us. It cries out that the Lord is lavish and generous. My cherry tree is almost beyond description. It is so full of blooms.
So I’m back in my rhythm. But enthused by the knowledge that Jesus is not predictable. He is the One who overcame death and stood up!